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Saturday, May 24th, 2014 02:35 pm
[Cross-posted from the Vision Riders Blog, with some minor additions at the end.]

Sorry for the lack of updates, but this has really been an all-around horrible week.

If you've been following me on Twitter, you probably already know that I've been having trouble with my desktop computer. Around Tuesday or so it randomly decided that it wasn't Direct3d compatible anymore. On a Windows machine, this of course spells major trouble. Not only does it render most games unplayable, it makes it virtually impossible to get any sort of work done. Even browsing the internet can be a chore because Windows is chugging along mostly on CPU-generated software graphics. OpenGL appears works just fine, and the display is going out correctly to both monitors, the computer just refuses to interface with or even recognize Direct3d.

I've tried everything. I've reseated the video card (multiple times), uninstalled and reinstalled the video card drivers (multiple times), installed older versions of the drivers, started up with all non-Microsoft services shut down, even messed around with the Windows registry and system BIOS. Nothing. The only thing I haven't tried is wiping the main hard drive and reinstalling Windows, but to give you an idea of just how long it's been since I've had a good system upgrade, the only Windows install disc I have is for XP service pack 1.

The entire reinstall process will take days in and of itself. I'll have to download install all the updates to bring XP up-to-date (well, as much as XP can be), find and reinstall all my work software, reconfigure all the settings back to how they were, troubleshoot all the new issues that inevitably pop up... I'm getting worn out just thinking about it. And, while this should fix the issue, if it's a hardware issue with the motherboard/CPU or the video card, I'll have done it all for naught.

This has been a long time coming. My computer's failure was inevitable, and I knew it. I've only had minor upgrades to my system over the past decade, mostly with hand-me-down-parts, and the last one was five or six years ago. I've had lots of issues with my computer over the past few years, becoming increasingly worse, and I knew it was only a matter of time before it finally gave out. It's part of why I put so much effort into getting Another Star finished before that happened. Sales from the game were supposed to help pay for a major overhaul of my system, but that didn't work out.

Thankfully, I still have a laptop, which despite some minor issues of its own is functional. It's not really designed for anything other than playing DVDs and surfing the internet, but it works at least. I suppose I'll have to be switching over to it for my main system. However, with the lack of storage space and processing power, I'm not sure how long it's going to hold up as a work machine, especially for a freelance artist.

Only time will tell.

I'd hoped to begin major work on my next game soon. The prototype was up and running, and I was almost ready to begin working on actual levels. It looked a lot better in screenshots, so I had hoped that it would get people interested in Another Star as a way to see the new game finished.

I'm not sure how well that's going to pan out now, though, without my desktop. Especially if I can't even accept freelance work because my laptop can't handle it. I have a lot to think about over the weekend as to what to do now and how to move forward. Maybe a future in art/design just wasn't meant to be. But if that's the case, what do I do with my life?
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Wednesday, May 1st, 2013 01:17 pm
Note: Possibly depressing post ahead!

Not long after my family had moved to Baytown a cat showed up on our back porch. She'd obviously been owned by someone before because she was tame and socialized (and wanted very much to go inside the house). Perhaps someone had abandoned her there? That sort of thing happens all too often. Or did she get lost? Did someone somewhere miss her? Did they love her? The answer to these questions will never be known, but regardless she stuck around.

Some animals you choose for yourself, but this cat was one of those that chose us. We took to feeding her and even, after a year or two, gave in and let her inside.

Since that time we've added four other cats and two dogs to our household, moved three times, evacuated from two hurricanes, and gone through all the other the normal ups and downs of life. At one point, so many years ago, she simply disappeared and we didn't know what happened to her. Then after some weeks had passed a friend of ours called about this white cat in their garage that turned its nose up at anything but dry cat food. We knew immediately it was her. Did she fall asleep on top of the engine block and get driven over there by accident? If so, how fortunate that she was driven to a nearby friend's, and not someplace distant. We'll never know for sure how she ended up there of course, but after that she's stuck by our side and been a primarily indoor animal.

But for the past couple of years her health has been declining. She hasn't been eating well, and she'd begun to steadily loose weight. Last year we took her in to the vet when she almost stopped eating anything at all. Her kidney and liver were failing, but she still had life left in her it seemed. After that she got better. Started eating regularly. She still threw up during the night sometimes, but I thought she was recovering, putting weight back on even.

She wasn't. It kept getting worse. Cats are really good about hiding when they're in pain, and fearing the possibility that she was I finally decided it was time to take her back to the vet. She's old, and I knew she would never fully recover, but if there was something that could make her feel better, put some weight back on, and give her a decent life in these last twilight years, I would do it. Already she gets special food three times a day. Already I spend almost every morning cleaning pee and cat vomit off the carpet. I'll do more if I have to!

This morning the vet confirmed the worst. Although she isn't in any major pain, she likely feels miserable all the time (the vet described it as "probably feels like having the flu"). She's down to almost nothing, has little muscle mass left, and she seems a bit dehydrated even though she's drinking plenty of water so to top it all off she probably has diabetes too. There's a few things we could try, but none of it would help her so much as just extend her a little longer.

Since not everyone in the family knew we were even going to the vet, we ended up bringing her back to the house so that everyone can at least say goodbye if they want to. Tomorrow morning we'll probably be putting her to sleep. I'd prepared myself for this possibility, but it didn't dampen the sudden sting of reality at all.

She's laying on my leg right now with some food in her belly. I hope she's content, I really do. I haven't cried this hard in a long, long time. And it's not just the fact that she's about to die that makes me feel so hollow inside, it's the fact I can't tell her everything's going to be okay. It's the fact that I'm making this decision and not her. Would she rather hold on and live a few more weeks or months with what happiness she has left? I don't know, and there's no way to ask her. I certainly don't want to keep her alive to suffer just for my sake.

I wish I could do more. I'm sorry, Jake. I so, so sorry.
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Wednesday, November 28th, 2012 04:25 pm
I suppose I should elaborate on my last entry for clarity.

On February 14th of 2007 the paperwork for my company, "Vision Riders Entertainment, Inc." (full legal name), went through and was registered with the state of Texas. After leaving Texas I have worked off and on (and with numerous pitfalls and missteps) to close out the corporation. This is in part because the venture failed, but also because for a company Vision Riders' size it didn't really make sense to operate as an out-of-state entity.

I closed out all the company's accounts, cleared everything up with the IRS, and made sure all the company's other obligations were fulfilled, but because I was out-of-state I had difficulty getting things straightened out with the state of Texas so that I could dissolve the actual entity. Finally, a couple days before Thanksgiving I got my Certificate of Account Status from the comptroller's office letting me know that everything had been made good with them, and so after Thanksgiving I turned around and filed for termination with the Secretary of State. I got an email this morning letting me know that it had gone through yesterday.

I will probably file a DBA with Hardin County here in Kentucky so that I can release Junction under the Vision Riders Entertainment name (if the game ever gets that far), so the company isn't completely "dead", I suppose, but despite the fact the company has been virtually defunct for two years now, the fact it's official is still a huge blow to the gut.

Also I'll miss being able to put that little "Inc." at the end.
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Wednesday, November 28th, 2012 09:43 am
Vision Riders Entertainment, Inc.

2/14/2007 - 11/27/2012
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Thursday, August 30th, 2012 08:43 pm
Ah man, someone beat me to my idea.

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Monday, November 21st, 2011 06:35 pm
It's common for discrepancies to pop up between word processors' internal word count and the official NaNoWriMo word count validator because of how different programs interpret what counts as an individual word. Usually, this is means people's word counts are off by a hundred words or so.

Mine is off by 2,396. This means instead of 50,206 words, my official validated count is 47,810. Bah! At least the ship finally went boom. Next year I'm doing a story that actually has a chance of fitting into the alloted goal.
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Friday, December 17th, 2010 09:20 pm
District 9 Spoilers )
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Thursday, November 11th, 2010 07:02 pm
Well, so much for NaNoWriMo. Didn't even hit 1,000 words since I had to take my computer down the day after the event started and move 1,000 miles. Now the month's 1/3 over with. I *could* catch up if I really tried, but the cost in time would be too great. I really have other things that take priority right now.


Well, maybe next year. :/
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Sunday, September 19th, 2010 06:41 pm

I swear, if it's DRM-laden when it relaunches, I will cry tears so hard...
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Saturday, June 12th, 2010 06:36 pm
I just watched the new XCOM trailer, and I can't stop sobbing. Yes, it's an interesting idea, but it is not X-Com.

Heaven forbid you give a new series a new name.
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Monday, January 25th, 2010 06:59 pm
I didn't think Birth By Sleep's release date was until March or something. As a consequence, I have failed to notice that the game is already out in Japan and have managed to, by accident, spoil for myself one of the biggest plot points in the game.

I am very angry with my self. :(